Being Honest About Disappointment
MONDAY, MARCH 28
Good Enough, 134-139 Psalm 55
Psalm 55 pulls no punches and the words tumble out in their searing honesty. You won’t often hear this kind of raw anger given voice in the context of spiritual writing. But it’s there. Look over the psalm and pull out the words that let us know the writer’s complaints. And what does he wish for his enemies?
“I cry out in distress, and God hears my voice.” What does the psalmist need? The first thing is simply to be heard. What does your heart cry out for? Short or long, tell God all of it. “Cast your cares on God” means to throw these heavy things right off of you. Put your back into it.
God, I am worn out from problem-solving and this never ending spiral of sorrow. I need shelter. Solace. Comfort. This Lent, give me room for more honesty with You. Honesty with my hopes and dreams and fears and disappointments. And help me do the little human things for right now, and trust you with the rest. God, you have sustained me in times past. Come, and do it again.
Amen.